Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Tibet, Tibet

Patrick French seems to have put into words that spiritual and emotional essence which I identify with Middle Earth and Arda... with the Shadow Realm, with the lands of the Dea al Mon, and countless others.....

'I began to read about Tibet, its life, religion and traditions, its rulers and ruled. Looking back through sheared, overlapping memories, trying to get a glimpse of the past, it is hard to see what made me feel such an instinctive devotion to Tibet.

I can see another version of myself responding, with similar instincts but different knowledge. In essence, there were two things that drew me: the place and the spirit.

Tibet was as far as you could go. It was a harsh, remote, untouched land, outside time and geography, where ideas could be projected and dreams could be lived, a high plateau the size of western Europe, the most mountainous country on earth and nearly the most sparsely populated, a place of physical angularity and limitless expansion where perceptions of space and distance altered, a land of blue sheep, blood pheasants and barking deer, ringed by snow peaks and impassable high-altitude deserts dropping to fields of jasmine, sky-blue poppies, apricot orchards, incandescent turquoise lakes and hillsides of juniper; a place of serenity, where the enlightened chose to return after death and reincarnate themselves in human form for the good of all sentient beings; of names that rolled from your mouth: Pandatsang, Chomolungma, Dekyilingka, Dorje; of ancient monasteries with smoking butter lamps, wrathful deities, prostrating nuns, flailing oracles, revelatory trances and shaven-headed incarnations in maroon robes, cloistered in meditation, the low cry of human thigh-bone trumpets and the rhythm of soft, gutteral chanting flowing down the valleys with the snow-melt; nomads and herders, amulets close to the skin, children wrapped in sheep-skins, pushing flocks of yak and dzo, the yak-cow crossbreed, through the mountain passes, heading for the fragrant grasslands as their ancestors had always done. This was Tibet, before I went there: a place of dreams, a place to feel at home.'

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Someone to watch over me

Ira Gershwin.....

There's a saying old, says that love is blind
Still we're often told, "seek and ye shall find"
So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind

Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet
He's the big affair I cannot forget
Only man I ever think of with regret

I'd like to add his initial to my monogram
Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There's a somebody I'm longin' to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who'll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Someone to watch over me


http://reshmasanyal.blogspot.com/2004_09_01_reshmasanyal_archive.html#109418590718290710

Friday, August 13, 2004

Erendiraaaaa.... Ji, Dadi-sa!!!

‘An unparalleled new theatre adaptation of Gabriel Garcia Marquez's Erendira and Her Heartless Grandmother, by one of India's most prestigious theatre companies, TV and Theatre Associates, Delhi.’

Translated into a Rajasthani dialect and portrayed as a folk tale, Erendira is based on Marquez's story of a fourteen-year-old girl who accidentally sets fire to her grandmother’s (dadi-sa) palace of a household and then has to spend the rest of her life as a roving prostitute, raising money to make good the damage, is captivating, scintillating and deeply moving as well. The girl gains in popularity and the grandmother makes money, until, perhaps inevitably, Erendira falls in love with Ulysses (Ullasi), a truck driver and induces him to slay the woman who has forced her into a life of prostitution. A bizarre fairytale plays out, marrying epic tragedy with contemporary culture. It’s remarkable fluidity in the progression of the narrative and the precision with which the actors morph into different characters as well as swap roles, is superlative.

Five actors together representing the grandmother sprawled out in her bathtub, indeed, look much like the huge white whale that Marquez describe her as. Six women play the role of the innocent girl who gives up her body every night to strangers for a price. Five women and a young man play Grandmother, in each of her grotesque avatars. All of them wear pancake make-up, the sort that Kabuki-dancers sport, to give the play overtones of a puppet show. A spectacle that combined elements of fantasy, fairy tale, foot-tapping music (a heady mix of the Colombian carnivalesque and Rajasthani folk beats), lively dancing (Flamenco, Kalaripayattu, folk dances) and plenty of razzle-dazzle. The costumes, the stage décor and the props have a lot of gold in them - to signify opulence, aridity, claustrophobia, riches, money (an obvious spill-over of the image of the Grandmother’s gold vest — the only thing that Erendira takes with her before leaving after the old harridan had been slain). Another interesting touch is in the pairs of trousers, hanging in a row from a clothesline, later joined by a series of deflated balloons in the shape of human bodies. Phenomenal choice of music and choreography made it an evening and a play to remember.

Directed by Amal Allana, this production has a unique and rich blend of rhythms, movement, costumes, masks and performance style that creates links between India and Latin America, a smooth blend of the different cultures. Not having read Marquez (soon to be remedied), I quote… ‘Set against the backdrop of a colourful, exuberant, culturally hybrid world, Erendira draws parallels between the fantastical element of Magical Realism in the Latin American tradition, and the folk tales and myths of Rajasthan, which have the same strange quality and sensuality seen in Marquez's work. Magic Realism is one key device regularly associated in contemporary literature with notions of otherness and post-colonial dislocation, experiences shared by India and Latin America. The vibrant visual effects, choreography and music all contribute to the multiple strands of different cultures and identities woven into the texture of the play.

Monday, August 09, 2004

Questioning Reality

Wrote the following stuff in college .. can't remember when.. was looking through my old floppies when it turned up..... gosh, what crap I used to write!!!!!!!

Questioning Reality

I see. I see my hands. I see trees. I see the grass, the sky, and the world.

I see. I see tiny black lines revolving around one another. I see dark shadows. I see stretching curving contours. I see the world.

I see. I see oblongs joined together. I see green patches. I see olive patches and the world.

I see. I see squares of peach. I see rectangles of brown. I see triangles of green. I perceive the world.

What do I see? Do I really see or do I perceive? Is perception a matter of visualising what we see as simplified forms or as complexities that cannot be understood?

What do you see? Do you see what I see? Or is it that you cannot see what I see because it is not what I see? Do your senses interpret it differently from mine? Or is the world in existence simply there to be seen through each of our eyes?

I see you. I draw a figure with a head, a torso, two arms and two legs. Do you see what I see?

I see your drawing of me. I see a head, a torso, two arms and two legs. Is that what you see? Or does your drawing differ in your eyes from my perception of it?

Do my eyes translate your perception into mine? Do yours? Why cannot I see your perceptions? Or do I?

Is there only one reality? Or is it the same reality called by names? Or is it the same names that denote each person's perception of the same object and unify them?

I see a tree. I see branches. I see leaves. I see a trunk. I perceive that there must be roots.

What do you see? Are the branches like the ones I see? Are the leaves? Is the trunk? Do you perceive the existence of roots? Do you picture them as I do?

Does the world define us? Or do we define the world? Do we perceive it as it should be? Is it existent only to be perceived? Would it exist were there noone to perceive it? Would we exist were there noone to perceive us?

Who am I? What am I? Is it my perception or someone else's that defines me? Do I really exist as I see myself or am I someone's perception of an object existing in the spatio-temporal reality?

Am I always perceptible or do I flicker in and out of this dimension through your fancies? Am I real? What is reality? Is perception reality or is mere knowledge enough?

What is knowledge? Is it perception? Is it the ability to see what exists? Or is it the need to see what exists? But does 'it' really exist? Or is it the need to feel as though I exist?

Is there reality beyond my consciousness? Do I need to perceive objects to stabilize my own soul? What is stability if there is no reality? What is my soul if there is no stability? What am I? Where am I?

Where am I? Do dimensions exist? Does this dimension exist? Does the universe exist? Being without an identity do I have the ability or the right to question the existance of these and of the universe?

Or does the universe question me? Does it perceive me as an entity? Does it have a definition for me? Does it contain the answers I seek? But does it really exist? If it does not, how is it that I am aware of it?

What is awareness? Is it the ability to see or to perceive? Is it proof of my existence? What is existence? What is life?

Is life perception? Is it knowledge? Is it awareness? Is it sentience? Yet, if I do not exist, how can I be sentient? How can I be aware? How can I know? How can I perceive?

So, if I am sentient, I perceive and I am aware, do I have proof that I exist? Again, I see. I observe. I think. I reason. I perceive. I derive proof undeniable. I live. Reality defines me. I define reality.

Yet, who am I? What am I?

What is reality?

Friday, July 30, 2004

Jitterbug?

Meeting new people gives me the shakes. Literally, the shakes. My hands shiver, my shoulders get tied up in knots, and it doesn't help my tongue-tied state any!! Met someone at office today that I was supposed to help out with a cover and stuff compliments of the company and all that, and I'd spoken to him before, he'd worked for Appa and all, but the moment I hadda go down to the meeting room to discuss whatever, there were the shakes!!!
 
I have to get over this!! I'm nearly a quarter century into my life, and I simply cannot - and I mean cannot - continue this way. It affects my already tension-filled existence.. get outta my head!!!! How can I possibly go through life muttering the Litany Against Fear under my breath.. not that it always helps anyway!!! ARGGGGHHHHHH!!! (That seems to be my favourite expression these days!!!)

Fee Fi Fo Fum... Fetish Fun?!

Said my boss's daughter: "Everyone is allowed to have one fetish!"

I agree... how else would life be a blast in your own head? I don't know her very well, but her fetish seems to be shoes.. some of the prettiest and most unusual I've ever seen... curl-toed slippers, hot pink mules, white slippy-things, thick slippers (the ones that are all the rage now) .. you name it, she's worn it!! And she once said she doesnt have much creativity or imagination!!! HAH!! You can see glimpses of potential every time she's shod in a pair a mundane individual wouldn't be caught dead (or alive) wearing...

My fetish is my socks.. yes, people, I did say socks. I am most comfy in closed shoes, and since my fave ones 'died' from overuse, I've been living in 'keds' as and when I can... and the socks that are on the feet that are gently slipped and laced into those very comfy keds are bright, peppy or sober, and reflect my mood of the day... from black to blue to rainbow stripes to bee-stripes, to dogs and bugs and little sequinned ribbons, regular socks, tube socks, socks that have five toes each a different color!!! My socks have 'em all... and hey.. what's great is that I can indulge my fetish without a soul ever commenting "O-kay, so why are you wearing THAT?!" As sooo many very irritating and rude specimens of excuses for polite human society find it their main motivation in life to do!!! *Ptui! May the fleas of a thousand camels infest their nether regions for eternity.*

So fetish away people.. and hey... EVERYTHING has potential.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

'Cos I Like the Lyrics.....

There are weeks when all I listen to (while I drive at least) is Robbie Williams, interspersed with some weeks when it's ONLY Krishna or MSS, sometimes it's Sardari Begum or Gurtu... I like Mynta too though I've only ever heard one album.... relaxes me when I'm driving, and don't have to think much.... I particularly love the lyrics of Better Man (Rest In Arms) by Williams...

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I feel the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
Cos it's not my fault
I know I've been told
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen on stony ground
But love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I feel the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Monday, July 19, 2004

Dammit!!!

Edited the blog template, but hasn't worked... DRAT!!!! Shall persevere, however.....

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Lucknow

Shero-Shayari ka shaher hai.. aaram karne hum aaye..
zindai mein aisi shaanti mili... hafte bhar ka chaainn mila.. agle saalbhar ke liye tayaar hue....

Friday, June 25, 2004

Workaholics Me-nonymous

Hmmn.. verrry boring day at work.. finished what I had to do and sat around all day waiting for something else to come my way.. not a very frequent occurence thank goodness, or I'd go batty waiting around all day!!! Not the best place for me to be!! IGOR VE NEED MORE VORK!!!! Anyhoo.. shall get back to the grind on Monday after a relaxing weekend spent with my fave Wahi.... pampering galore!!! AND Lord of the Rings II extended version DVD!!!!!! Yay!!

Thank you Glitz

Glitz/Wahi Darling, yes, you will always be my fave Wahi.. and yours is the only pampering that relaxes me after a really baaaad week!!!! Shall miss thou much when thou goest.

Thursday, June 10, 2004

I, Me and my Blog

I am the alpha and the omega.. the beginning and the end.. of my blog at least. A place where I can say what I want, feel what i feel, think, draw, write and analyze. Where I can be me. Hmmn.. we shall see how this progresses. 
 
Shall also type in some earlier entries from my old blog that died.. fortunately.. had a few hard copies of what I'd written....

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Of Fish in the Land of Boredom

So this is what I’m reduced to!!!! My computer’s sad demise has left me  writing abominably bad poetry about incidents that occurred months and months ago…. Alas!!! My week of bad luck continues. One hopes that the following one will be rather more in the general direction of happiness, peace and comfort - though if I assure myself of that, i shall, undoubtedly, be disappointed in every way, throughout the said week! [...]

Let me regale you with a tale of yore
That you’ll enjoy it I’m sure
Truth to tell, we went through hell
Perhaps for you it may ring a bell
A similar incident you may have had as well.

I entered my room tired and worn
Greeted by a roomie joyous and warm
‘There are fish here you know,’
Said she all aglow
‘In the stairwell, and they look low.’

‘Fish,’ said I, startled and alarmed
‘Why and wherefore, be darned?!’
‘The maid brought them in,
In a plastic bottle, not a tin,
She though they oughta be kept in.’

‘A plastic bottle, not bowled?’
‘Not even a bottle, a dirty jar – old.’
‘How many are there?’
‘Seven’d be a guess quite fair.’
‘What’ll we do with ‘em – out there?’

I hastened out to see them
In the stairwell perceived them
Seven ugly fish in a jar
Breadcrumbs their clean water did mar
The dirtiest fish ever seen by far.

‘They look like they’re dying
To survive not even trying!’
‘We’ll give ‘em to Karuna down the stairs
An aquarium she has we’re aware
She’ll keep them alive, I’d swear!’

Post-haste down the stairs we went
Rang the bell and looked through the vent
Karuna answered the doorbell
We asked could she keep fish well
‘No way,’ she replied. ‘They ain’t swell.’

Foiled in our crusade was our lament
Yet more options seeking we went
I called a friend on the phone even
‘Do you want to adopt fish seven?’
‘Fish? Ugly? Not even if there’re eleven!’

She spoke to a colleague from Cal
‘Do you want to adopt fish, me gal?’
‘Are they pretty?’
‘Not even a bitty!’
‘Then – no – not even out of pity!’

‘Seven fish in a dirty jar
They’re going to die – it’s not far!’
So we decided to transfer ‘em
From the jar into a bucket pour ‘em
But how would we strain ‘em?

Shilpika said. ‘I’m not fussy,
I’ll put my hand in – no worry!’
We took them to the loo
And dismayed surveyed the goo
And cried.’ Shilpika – hurry up, do!’

She plopped them into the bucket
One by one – ooh – yucket!!
One lay rather still
We wondered – was it ill?
Until we realized ‘twas deathly chill.

Six fish rather still in clean water
And drops of dechlorinater two and a quarter
Karuna dropped in some fish feed
They still didn’t look upto speed
Nor did they show any greed

We left them there for the night
Thought they should be alright
We’d collar the maid the next day
Ask her why she left them that way
And get her to take them away

The next morning they were reeking
The odor we’d not have gone seeking
To think we’d thought of eating
Fish that looked like they’d taken a beating
That doesn’t even bear repeating!!

Finally the maid arrived
‘How could you do this,’ we cried
‘Now take ‘em back where they belong
Give ‘em to whoever you got ‘em from.
We don’t want ‘em, at least not for long.’

‘Okay, I’ll put them though the flush
They’ll be got rid of n a rush.’
That was the maid’s solution
Which caused rather a commotion
But we refused to give in to emotion

‘They must be got rid of.’
I barked and went off in a huff.
She swept and swabbed the house
Then took them away amid many a grouse
Those fish were never again heard of.

MV (Creativegarh) wrote in reply:
Hi Aarti,
There's something moving about such tales
Of blood and death on small scales
But how much more gory
Would this fishy little story
Have been had it involved killer whales.


My reply:
Hey Manoj
I didn't think to khoj
Gory enough was my tale
For little ol' me to regale
Minds that think on a larger scale!!!!

  
MV's second quip:
Hi Arati,
O I'm quite filled with remorse
The tale was great, of course
It surely can't be made better
But by tweaking idea and letter,
We just might make it worse! :-)


My last words:
M don’t be remorseful
After all, u were only being thoughtful
When minds that create
Work in conjunction, it’s great
In this lies a tale's fate.

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Re: Death

In reply to Gollum Nasty, Creativegarh

What is death but the end of life? What is the end of life but an unknown? What is the unknown? Unknown.

How then wouldst thou define death? Unknown? Nay. That be not the line I wouldst have thee follow, Smeagol.

Death be but a new life. Who hath returned from the dead with life in their veins yet? Yea verily, near death experiences, but these are moot. Death must be seen not as an escape but as a challenge, a new perspective, a bueno vista so to speak. 

What thinkest thou?